Fantasy World

請別當我是娃娃…我仍有自己的感受，自己的自尊…

今天 本人留在家裡看 E's otherwise.

雖然本人認為很好看， 但神樂和許XX 都很反對。 唉！

之後本人就去拉琴， 死…… 全部走音！ 最後決定放棄， 結果被老師話沒有練琴。 (好彩呀媽不在場 否則要再請神樂幫本人收屍 哈哈!!)

回家後，本人便做了「接線生」--  談music presentation 和何時去海洋公園...... 「煲粥」煲了一小時 ，結果被呀媽罵 。 凡有人打電話給我， 她都會說我去了洗手間。 唉… 覓，對不起…

到了凌晨才有時間打blog 唉…

很不開心…

第一：因為要溫中史的省份

第二：因為聽到個很失望的消息

第三：因為我覺得自己用來參加比賽的文章好像少了些東西，但是不知道是甚麼…

神樂之前給我的網址有這一句： 「Sick of crying, sick of lying inside. I'm dying but all you see is me smiling...」

我總是笑著，但這並不代表我很開心，只是我想掩蓋我的失望…

而我哭，就因為我感覺到絕望…

但算吧！總之，我現在甚麼也不想做…尤其是功課…

On the first English lesson, I remembered my teacher asking us to write down what kind of animal we wanted to be.

I, without much hesitation wrote wolves, and the explanantion was that wolves to me represented freedom. Most of my classmates wrote that  they wanted  to be pandas or dolphins, as they are adorable and kind of lazy.

And why would I choose to have freedom instaed of cuteness? Because my life doesn't seem to belong to me, but my mother's. She planned everythings for me without consulting me, and even if she does, she always get what she wants. I, to her is only puppet, being controlled and manipulated by her and only her -- the puppet master.

How I wish I could do everything on my own, according to what I wish, according to what I planned for myslef?

I often ask my friends what they want to be and if their parents ever force them to be that profession, their answer was always "no". But this is just the opposite for me, my mother prepares everything for me, and my feelings are just a rubbish or waste to her. I knew she wanted me to study Biology, Chemistry and Physics next year, but has she ever asked me whether I really wanted to study these subjects, has she ever asked about my feelings towards studying science. The answer in absolutely no..

I don't know how to stop... in this confused status....

今天本人太開心了。 為何? 當然是因為某人送了 water babies 給本人玩，哈哈！！ 由於香港禁止出售 water babies，所以之前本人還以為再沒有機會嘗試玩 water babies la... (本人超級感謝那位熱心人士 -- Rxxx Nx !)

在空堂時，我拿出 water babies ，然後放進一個盒裡再加水！哈哈！！大功告成！！現在需要做的東西便是等…等… 再等…而我就和一班無聊朋友凝視著那個盒…等著那些 water babies 變大…

無聊之中，我們記起張老師所提及的電視節目 —「娛樂無窮」… um…這節目是關於一缸魚游來游去…um… um... 很好笑…不錯…不錯… 而我們現在就像看著「娛樂無窮」一樣…

無聊的我們更為那些不同顏色的 water babies 改了以下的名字 : 黃寶寶、 綠寶寶、白寶寶 和 變態寶寶或「伴伴」。之於為何最後那個叫做「 變態寶寶」，我也不知道，因為是神樂改的，如果想知道原因，請親自問神樂。

午飯時， 我將 Rxxx Nx 用糖紙摺給我的金龜放進盒裡，這是用來陪著 water babies 的…um... 我也覺得自己很無聊！

放學時，我將 water babies 放在抽屜裡便離開了。

唉…現在還擔心那些 water babies 不夠水，它們可能會有皺紋 …唉… 總之就不應該放它們進入抽屜裡la!!!

We had IT lessons every Wednesday. But is IT lessons...um...should it be really classified as a lesson?

In our IT lessons, we never pay attention to the teacher. We never care what he says. We never do the homework. We never...

All we do is facebooking, anime / video watching, blog typing....Once in a while, our teacher would give us A WORKSHEET, I mean worksheets that will take us about a minute to finish. Not to mention about the difficulty of the worksheets, even the primary ones can do them. You just have to fill in the blanks where the answers are in the projector, and well, they're all done!!!

After that, we continued our own work (facebooking, anime / video watching, blog typing...) until... until the bells rings, and Lunch begins!!!

哈哈!!

我終於渡過了每逢星期一的死亡遊戲 — 曲掍球 la!!

Urm…其實不應哈哈，而是唉……

在曲掍球的練習裡，我故意遲到 15 分鐘，為的是希望避過死亡遊戲中的跑。雖然到達時還沒有被教練罵，但我還是要跑兩個圈！！

好彩今次練跑時沒有死，不需神樂幫我收屍…萬歲!!

但這想法避免決定得太早了…

是時候練曲掍球的技術la ，教練要我們分組，兩個人一組…由於女和男的人數都是單數，所以我被迫和一位中國籍男子一組。討厭…

明知男子的體能比女子好，我死的時候，他還站在這裡，沒有事…

連最後十分鐘比賽我也沒力再跑了…

現在手又痛，腳又痛，下樓梯時又痛，坐在椅子上又痛…做甚麼都很痛…

死la! 還沒做功課…

Argues usually start when one party doesn't approve the other party.

So here I'll tell you, how me, a girl caring her own business and nothing else got into an argument with the most obnoxious girl in class.

It all started (kind of like a story) when she, absolutely not me, stared at the blog that I was typing.

Blog is something which can be both public and personal. I mean, blog is something which I can express my feelings and speak about my life, but still I don't like people looking what I was typing, not until I finished it.

Then all of a sudden, she said," It is "you never listen", not "you never listens". She seemed to be speaking to the thin air, but not to me. But I surely knew what I was typing at that time.

I knew she was trying to correct my mistake. It's good to help others to correct their mistakes when they have done something wrong, and I personally will accept my wrong with an open heart.

But then she mumbled to herself, not really mumbling, as it was nearly loud enough for everyone to hear, "Ha, A set E girl, who writes with grammatical mistakes. Shouldn't she be in a lower set?"

"Why I say, so you, the most boastful girl of all never write with mistakes? MISS. BEST-OF-THE-BEST?" I thought to myself, trying to be as silent as possible, trying not to cause any commotions during the IT lesson,

Then she continued mocking me," Ha, fail is what you will get in the next exam, you get it?"

At last, I can't get hold of myself, so I burst out," Fail? You mean. Shouldn't you be the one failing? Me? Just nonsense."

After that, she shouted, "Fail? I never fail. You should be the one failing..." Then she whispered to her friend next to her, probably about the bad quality that I had.

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Though the argument ended here, but I'm still so fed up with her.

I have never ever done anything to harm her or...

I've been waiting her to shout up, and what I got? More scolds from her, what does she think she is, a lord, an angel, the best? Ha, in her head. (Trying to calm myself once again)

 哥哥昨天到了英國，屋裡少了位成員。

我平靜地回答：「沒有。」

我又回答：「沒有。」

我又再次回答：「沒有。」

我不明白，當親人到了外國時，我不是應該感到傷心的嗎?

但是，我的弟弟卻剛好相反，因為哥哥的離開，他整晚也睡下著。

哈哈!:>

一開始便要圍著曲掍球場「八」字形地跑3個圈 -- 等於 -- 死!!

然後，圍著曲掍球場再以長方形又跑3個圈 -- 等於 -- 死上加死!!

之後，再前後不斷地跑…死了…死了…躺在棺材裡…

現在，手和腳都有點脾…死了